Life and Living

Category: Life Changes | Posted: Fri Mar 14, 2008 4:25 pm

I had just popped in to catch up a bit and realized just how much I have missed all of you and this lovely community. There is always something here to cheer up even the weariest days of life.

I have been struggling just to maintain some form of normalcy in my life. I suppose if I admitted it, I would have to say depression had taken up residency in my life. It's odd how sometimes, or most times, we don't recognize it until we feel better. Anyway, having recognized the problem, I can and am doing something about it.

It's not that my life is so bad. I believe it was due to health problems and some of the medications I am on. Then the new Dr. I am seeing tells me that I won't get better living where I am. I live right next to the train tracks. Sometimes the train parks in front of my house and leaves engines running for days. Turns out the diesel fumes are very bad for me,
among other things in the immediate area.

Last visit he asked me if I had moved yet. It's just not so easy to pack up and move! My house is old, but it is paid for. I love my yard and we have built a little paradise in a small area to escape and relax in.

My Hubby's father's health has taken a sudden turn for the worse. We went and visited him for two weeks. After being out of my house for two weeks, I started feeling much better. I was home for 2 days before I was sick again.

Our plan is to move to Oklahoma to help take care of DH father. Here's where things get tricky. I need to sell my house to have money to move on. We will be staying with FIL as long as he needs us. I have a few dogs and a lot of birds, along with some really cute chickens.

It is just a little overwhelming to try to imagine things will come together with the right timing, but I have faith they will.

At any rate, life is going to be changing...hmmm.
I know it will be for the better of all of us. I like change and I love the area we are going to. I can grow a garden in soil that is not contaminated with lead as it is here. The water here is also not good. It has toxic levels of a few things. I don't know how they can even sell it. We don't drink it but we do bathe in it.

The only draw back is leaving family here that I will miss. I will be leaving my two precious grandsons. I know I will still get to see them but I will have withdrawls from holding and cuddling them. They give the best lovin's of anything I have ever came into contact with. I will also be leaving my mom and dad as well as my four children. But I may be gaining my health back and that is worth every thing to me.

I plan to sell most of my birds, but can't part with my dogs. My baby, Bouncer, is 10 mo old and weighs over 80 pounds now. My FIL doesn't want dogs at his place but my SIL said I can keep them at her house a couple miles away.

I haven't advertised my house, but have one prospect. He is coming by this week to let me know if he wants it. If I sell it I can pay off my car and leave it for my daughter. I will be completely out of debt. Yippie! I hate owing on things.

It was so wonderful when we were there. I went outside at night and instead of trains (every 15 min day and night) I could hear an owl and some coyotes.

Things will be changing for sure. One of the lovely things about online communities, you can take them with you and it is one thing that you don't have to leave behind.

I am so looking forward to this change, even tho it is stressful getting everything done to get there. I am going to have one huge yard sale. The things I want to move are my big pile of barnwood, my rocks, and some of my plants. My hubby thinks I could leave my rocks and wood here. It's funny how us garden junk people put value on certain things. But I didn't see very many rocks there!

I met my husband in Oklahoma and lived there for 13 years so I know what it is like. I will have to come up with a good bug repellent that doesn't aggravate my sensitivities to chemicals.

I'm not sure when all of this will take place, but it will be soon. Now that I have vented all of my concerns, I feel much better and need to start packing and sorting. I have a lot of stuff.

Once I am there, I am sure I will have a lot of nice pic's. I will be able to take a walk and see trees and streams and different birds and such. It will be a huge change from walking in the desert where almost nothing grows.

Life is good and getting better!

I really have missed being part of this "stew" and hope I can get things done so I will have time to come and visit!

Have a great day everyone! I am going to pack!!

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Droopy wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 4:42 pm:

There you are, I've missed you. Those are really big changes for you, but it's all worth it if your health improves. Hopefully there will be some neighbourhood children for you to cuddle if the cravings get too serious. How big a yard will you have to play with in Oklahoma? Good luck with your packing. I've been told that to make a desicion takes longer than seeing things through.

Netty wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 5:01 pm:

We've missed you too Desertflower! Best of luck with your move.

Palm Tree wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 5:32 pm:

Uprooting oneself is never nice. But I hope for the best for all of you.

CritterPainter wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 5:42 pm:

Good to see you again! Just to encourage you, the house I grew up in was in a valley with the interstate running through it. I had all sorts of sinus infections and whatnot growing up, thought it was just my lot in life. When I was 19 I moved out of the valley and have never had such sinus trouble since! Change can do amazing things! Oaklahoma will be different for sure, but just think of the fresher air... and the chance to start a new garden with all new junk!

desertflower wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 6:17 pm:

Hi again, so much for packing. I have been doing the most important things first. Digging up plants and putting them in pots!

The yard where I will be is very large. Maybe and acre or more! It will be unlimited what I can do. Father in Law says he is giving us the house when he is gone so hopefull that holds true and my work will not be just for fun. The farm graveyard has tons of neat things piled up rusting that I already have plans for. Lots of old wheel barrels, old water cans, even an old row boat, complete with drainage holes!!

True about the valley thing CritterPainter. Everyone in this valley is sick all the time. Freeway and trains, crop dusters, lots of dust too. I am really getting more excited by the minute.

eileen wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 9:00 pm:

Hi there - it's soooooooo good to have you back here again as we've all missed you.

Life is going to be so exciting for you once you've made the move. I love my garden but get excited just at the thought of you having all that space to do as you like with. With improved health just think of all the wonderful things you'll be able to achieve.

Good luck hun - you deserve it!!

glendann wrote on Fri Mar 14, 2008 9:22 pm:

I've been missing you.I'm so glad to hear from you.Gosh its really going to take lots of hard work to move but for your health its well worth it.Please keep in touch and let us know how things are going.

SongofJoy57 wrote on Sat Mar 15, 2008 4:34 pm:

We've missed you Desertflower . . . We hope your health takes a turn for the better . . . as for the grands & family . . . you will have to share pics back and forth . . . and perhaps invite everyone out sometime . . . how far is it? And when you go home to visit . . . it will be an extra special time . . . you and your situation are being lifted up in special prayer requests . . . that everything will fall into place. Loads of Love from SoJ

desertflower wrote on Sat Mar 15, 2008 4:51 pm:

eileen,glendann, (and everyone who missed me)thank you. It is nice to know I have been missed! I am still catching up on the great reading here. I can't believe how positive and refreshing visiting here is.

SongofJoy, thank you so much for the prayers. It is about 1000 miles away and I will survive. I am pretty much over the saddnes of leaving my family. I am so excited at the prospect of getting better that I have to do this. My DIL says that if Miles was old enough he would want me to go and get better. I am going to have time to build forts, and maybe a treehouse and who knows what else so when the babies are older and come to visit, they will love it so much they will drive their parents crazy to come back (hehe) We talked to Hubby's mom yesterday and she said FIL is really looking forward to us returning. Just to make more sense of the situation, DH parents are divorced. They still have contact and she still is helping take care of him. Just one of those things.

SongofJoy57 wrote on Sun Mar 16, 2008 10:09 am:

The treehouse and forts sound so fun . . . This change sounds like it will be good . . . When my parents moved to Florida, that is where we would plan our vacation each year . . . the children AND adults were equally excited.